I Am A Mother And I Refuse To Be Perfect

First of all, let me tell you something honestly. Being a mother of a four-year-old is not at all COOL! In fact, sometimes, you can feel pathetic. But hey, you are not allowed to accept it…neither publicly nor within yourself.

And from here, we, the mighty mothers, start our battle. We start a battle to proof our endless power of keeping everything in PROPER ORDER for our children which often we fail to do and start feeling miserable. But why? Why should we need to be as perfect as any of those Goddesses whom we worship? Why we are not allowed to make mistakes? Why we cannot get a “2nd chance?”

For my daughter, I am her mother and not a goddess. For her, I am a human being who loves her unconditionally (?) and is ready to make her life as comfortable and safe as possible. But I have my dreams, my wishes, my YES and NOs too.

I will not sacrifice anything for you in my life. I can make choices that may be or may not be beneficial for you. I may choose my career to provide you with a better materialistic future. Or I may choose to leave my career and stay close to you to make our emotional bonding stronger. But any of my decisions will not make me a less or more perfect as a mother because I do not want to be so.

I will decide whether I would come early from my office to spend more time with you or go for a hot cup of coffee after the office with my friends? That will be my choice, not sacrifice. I am not as powerful as you will be taught by the rest of society. Do not believe them. Believe me; I am weak, coward, selfish and sometimes self-centred too. I may not listen to your tantrums or make you feel happy every time and that is not my weakness. All of them are my choices and I am happy with it.

I am telling this to you because; I want you to be happy too. I do not want you to feel loaded with the huge debt of my endless LOVE for you. I do not want you to feel trapped in my affection. I do not want you to feel any obligation to repay my love and affections and sacrifices; with interests – here terms and conditions are NOT applied.

I brought you in this world because I want to be a mom. I am raising you because I choose it. I am loving you because that makes me happy. There is nothing about you; there was never and will not be in future too. So you are free to live your life as you like it. 
You do not owe me anything!